There is obviously a need to change myself from within. If I am ever to improve my actions, habits, thinking, feeling and even character, I will have to change my self-concept, the way I see and think of myself at every moment. This might seem like an impossible mission, especially as I am not confronted with a life-changing crisis. And knowing, I have tried this before, and very often so.
So what is different this time? I have more tools to stay on track. And more urgency. But the focus has to be on seeing myself as a ‘new me’ during my actions, thoughts, feelings – at every possible moment!
How do I do this? Besides visualisation, meditation and mindfulness, there is an issue with the body. Posture is one thing. Feelings of anxiety, fear, depression, stress, fatigue on a physical level another. Although some instruments, as mindfulness, natural anti-depressants, and planing/starting to exercise a bit might help, i feel as if this might not be enough. I might resort to escapism in its multitudinous forms regardless.
Maybe it is about basic and simple things as air (aerating, breathing) , water (drinking, showering), movement (standing, small exercises, stretching) etc.? Maybe, doing those things sometimes agains usual intuition, and combining these with the aforementioned means.
BUT: It may happen, that I use all these to stay on track, but forget to incorporate (the new) self-concept. I definitely need more reminders. Stuff like notes, clothes, accessories, looks – everything visual. I have to match increasingly/progressively the ‘outer me’ to the ‘inner (new) me’, so maybe even a little vanity could be instrumental.
Let’s try this!
